Life is what you make it.....

Me, Hollywood, Unversal Studios, and my Balenciaga :)

2006-07-21T11:09:00.000-07:00

Me and my cousin went to Hollywood yesterday, just for the heck of it...since I'm leaving soon. :) I don't know if it's just me or not but why does Hollywood look so ghetto? Buti na lang it's for free hahaha

Pictures from London sets, with Van Helsing, Wisteria Lane Desperate housewives, Fast and the Furious Tokyo drift and Vin Diesel's car (Sorry about the Muscle car...it's so not me but I have a thing with Vin Diesel hahaha), and of course Hollywood's walk of fame :)

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2006-07-10T10:38:00.000-07:00

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San Diego Balloon Safari

2006-07-09T15:07:00.000-07:00

I was in San Diego this week end. This is my first ever hot air balloon experience and it wasn't scary as I thought :-) Nature trip at 97 degrees...deng!

View from the top @ 400 ft ...seriously :)

Click on the pictures for larger image.

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Peace's

2006-06-30T11:30:00.000-07:00

Jimmy Choo

Gucci

Fendi

Chanel

and my personal favorite...Balenciaga

I will go into retail soon when I get back :-) Fashion is my passion so why not share it .....it won't come cheap but I can give up to 70%-80% off from the market retail price... I'm still constructing the website but these are some of the brands that I'm carrying, I also have other styles will be posting it soon :). I also have Nine West, Coach and other brands. Each bag comes free with auth cards, care booklet and dust bag.....

For orders or more info, email me at lisa_22_g@yahoo.com; guerrero.lisa@gmail.com :-)

2006-06-29T18:38:00.001-07:00

Guess

Tommy Hilfiger

Liz Claiborne

XOXO

XOXO

Tommy Hilfiger Hobo bag

Guess

Nine West

Nine West

No reason

2006-06-27T17:01:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to post the lyrics of the song that I heard from the show "The Hills" .......

Unbelievable

Kaci Brown

I Wish you didn't love me

I wish you'd make this easy

It was love that caught me

Now it's fear that keeps me with you

I want to be by your side

So I can close my eyes

To the growing emptiness inside that kills me

When I'm with you

You try to break me

Try to hate me

So you can fall out of love

You want to make me

believe that I'm crazy

That I'm nothing without you

It's unbelievable but I believed you

Unforgivable but I forgave you

Insane what love can do

That keeps me coming back to you

You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you

Now I'm standing on my own

Alone

I feel you in my shadow

My heart feels cold and hollow

No matter where I run

I see Your eyes always follow me

You try to hold me

Try to own me

Keeping something that's not yours

You want to make me

Believe that I'm crazy

Make me think that you're the cure

You're still haunting me

In my sleep You're all I see

But I can't go back

Cause I know it's wrong For us to go on

And I'm growing strong

To confront my fears

Counting the days.....

2006-06-19T18:06:00.000-07:00

I wish when I wake up nasa Pinas na ko!!

I am seriously counting the days of my homecoming...and as Ina puts it, the prodigal daughter is finally coming back home.

I am so seriously hooked with TFC kasi I can't wait to go back. This place made me overly paranoid, so I'm so happy I am finally able to pick up the pieces of my life together....

At last, I can finally go to Belo for a facial .....(babaw di ba hahaha)

I'm just so happy to see everyone I love so much again.

So there, I have nothing to write naman talaga I'm just bored .....

I guess I will see everybody soon!!

Next stop ..Sydney (";)

"Life is truly a ride. We're all strapped in, and no one can stop it. As you make your way from youth to adulthood to maturity, sometimes you put your arms up and scream; sometimes you just hang onto the bar in front of you. But the ride is the thing. I think the most you can hope for at the end of life is that your hair is messed up, you're out of breath, and you didn't throw up. "

Pot of gold......

2006-06-03T16:51:00.000-07:00

This year has been the longest one year of my life...

I left because I wanted to start a new life and have a pristine slate.....but unfortunately I wasn't happy.

So was this all a mistake?

I believe God does not make mistakes and He put me where I am supposed to be. It was difficult but lessons cannot be learned without difficulty.

I learned the most important in life and the importance of having "faith" in God. God showed me how perfect my life is and that I wasn't missing out on anything at all. I found answers to questions I've been wondering about practically all my life. I realized that the things I thought was valuable were nothing.

Despite everything I'm happy I did this. The truths about life we're revealed to me. No regrets. I know I can do anything that I want and have everything.

I came here to go after my dreams. But I didn't know that the pot of gold at the end of my rainbow of dreams was my family, true friends, and Chester.

I found my treasures......

And I will never ever be the same.

Finally, I'm coming home......no final date yet......but I'm coming home.....

"There are six billion people in this world....but sometimes all you need is one...."
---The OC----

Surprise ...surprise!!!! Oh yes I am!!

2006-05-20T10:44:00.000-07:00

You Are Ready to Get Married

You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoonIn fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship workAnd from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean itYou've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

Are You Ready To Get Married?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

Are you kidding me????????????????

2006-05-18T17:32:00.000-07:00

Congratulations to me I am now a victim of identity theft.....I don't know what happend I just learned about it today and now my bank is closed and I can't talk to them until tomorrow.....According to their 24 hour customer service they did not know what happend because the amount was so large. I hope they don't involve the police and think that I hacked it or something............I am so freakin' pissed!!!!!

My balance is a whopping $(-)887,013.87...wow di ba negative!!! Well if there were gonna screw up my account sana ginawa na lang nilang positive yung amount di ba....kaya nila eh!!

I am so upset that I feel so numb already...I cannot live without my bank account and card....

I hope they get my money back because I was saving to go back tapos eto pa nangyari......There goes the waves again ...it's kicking me back here

Why is this happening????!!!??????

First the crazy demented psycho stalker guys and now this!!!!!!!!!!???!!!!!!

This place is now officially freaking me out!!!!!

I hate cooking!!!!!!!!!(^%^%%*%!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-05-15T18:12:00.000-07:00

At lunch time today I was forced to cook eggs...yes forced...or more like I have to hahaha!!!!

Anyway I have really nothing sensible to write I just want to share how lucky I am to have a Mom who has her own small school cafeteria, an Uncle who worked for a restaurant in New York, and a Chef for a fiancee :P I guess God knows that no matter what I'm hopeless at cooking so He's got it taken care of, every where I go there's always someone there to cook for me :P

Well thank God!!!!!...make me clean just don't make me cook!!

To my Mama

2006-05-14T16:19:00.000-07:00

To the greatest mom in the whole world...

Happy Mother's day Mama..... I love you so much!!!!

and to all my Mommy friends!!!

JUST MY LUCK

2006-05-13T10:50:00.000-07:00

I will make kwento in a couple of days....but all I can say is that I am one lucky b*&$# when all of it happens..........

God is good....

This is truly the land of FREE gift with PURCHASE!!!!

For Ina....

2006-05-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

I might get busy in a couple of days so I'm posting this now with the right date! hahaha

To my equally crazy sis,

May you get only the "best" things in life because you deserved it. Thank you for putting up with a very difficult person like me. I know we've had our share of bitch fits with each other but we made it through that. I can't imagine my life without you. Thanks for always picking up me up everytime I fall.......

I will see you soon!!!

Busy bee

2006-05-10T18:17:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy today I got to talk to Liila, Marvin, and Pam (thanks to our very coordinated Da Vinci code like codes ahahahaha). They called me today for a test call in Pinas, there's something wrong with the Telcom connections from there kasi so they were calling here-----thank God for that!!

So eto emote nanaman ako because flashback mode nanaman ako....oh well, I've accepted it I will not be over this homesickness thing if I don't see my friends and especially Chester.

I complain to Chester everyday of how I miss him so much, but he said I wanted this before so now I got it why am I complaining so much (he has a point). So it got me thinking...deng!!!!! I was happy and having fun at the same time back then and now ewan...I cannot describe but sure I have fun sometimes but it's all superficial. I remember my entry from last year...

"paradise is not a place, it's where the heart is"------or something like that ......

So ironic because my street address before was 1618 Paradise Street and 1618 the PHI 1.618 number from the Da Vinci Code (I'm sorry I have this Da Vinci craze and I shouldn't be seeing it because I'm a faithful Catholic but I think my faith is strong enough to handle that). But Chet said not to worry because this phase will be over soon ....I just hope life came with a remote control so I can fast forward it!

For the meantime I'll just drown myself with work and study.........I'm working on another certification hahaha

I just had to borrow this from Marvin...........

"the difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave the normal, you go into the unknown.......and once you do, you can never go back"

So see you at the Louvre soon Liila .....just don't make me pronounce it either :P

MAYABANG.NET------at least we can admit it...

2006-05-02T20:39:00.000-07:00

I was surfing...as usual, instead of studying, taking care of business or more important stuff.....I space out 80% of the time haha. I found this website I'm sure it's from the Philippines (obviously!), I've always wanted to be in the fashion industry hehe and this is kinda cool. They're selling cute shirts with kick ass prints on them (there goes our idea Marvin, we should really think of something else now and we have almost a year!!!!!)

Anyway the one that really caught my attention on this site is the line ...."In order to love another, you must first love yourself"-----that is so right!!!

The Fab is going to more Fabulous soon......watch out :P

Blue black

2006-04-30T21:30:00.000-07:00

I never colored my hair blue black before, it's usually light brown or reddish brown. I think it's kinda cool brings out the color of my brown eyes hahaha .......so
ayan pose pose muna!

My turn..........

2006-04-27T11:42:00.000-07:00

1. How many schools did I go to?

I think 3 years old pa lang ako I'm already studying so ................
Arklight School: Nursery
Elizabeth Seton in Las Piñas: Kindergarten
Immaculate Heart of Mary in Parañaque: Prep to Grade 6
St. Scholastica's College Manila: High school
DLSU-College of St. Benilde: Graduated with Bachelor's degree
California State University East Bay: my continuing education for Six Sigma training

So six pa lang...hahaha kasi I still have plans after :) It's always good to exercise the brain from time to time...... hehe

2.Was I the class "taiko" or the teacher's pet?
I was always the teacher's pet but when I was in highschool I don't know what happend I guess it's coping with teenage life hahaha
College?-----Oh yes me and Ina are! hahaha I cannot forget this incident when we convinced our professor that the midterm exam should be open notes! hahahahaha

3. What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Very normal, cutting classes.....

4.Three subjects I enjoyed?
Speech class, Chemistry, Marketing subjects, and Economics

5.Three teachers that inspired me?
I can't remember anybody except for Mr. Abad my thesis adviser and college professor, he taught me almost everything I need to know to get ahead of anybody :-)

My theme song from Ibyang........for me and Chet

2006-04-24T23:45:00.000-07:00

Between You And Me

They say the road of life

Is paved with good intentions we have

No matter how we try

To keep our promises, sometimes we just can't

Little bit of faith can be wondrous

It's the only place we can turn to

Between you and me

There's enough love that I believe

We'll rise above and we'll get through anything

Between you and me

They say that bridges burn

From one soul to another if you don't tend the flame

And I pray somehow we've learned

To build an understanding from the ashes that remain

Not enough faith can be dangerous

It's the only place we can turn to

There are times I don't feel safe

Like we're not on solid ground

But I trust your eyes

When I see you look this way

I know we'll find it

We're gonna find it

"jennifer paige"

Once a Fab 5, always a Fab 5 (From Mars)

2006-04-21T10:56:00.000-07:00

Years ago, in a far away kingdom…
5 selected group of talented and sexy individuals emerged
and conquered PS…

FAB 5,

(DESPI, LISA, ANNA, LIILA, MARVIN)

From FAB 5 We became the Fantastic 4…

As Super mom transferred to a more convenient work

So she can look after her growing son…

(LISA, ANNA, LIILA, MARVIN minus DESPI)

Last year, when fantastic girl left to reach her stars

and followed her *dreams* which turned out to be not-so-fantastic after all,

Charmed ones we were…

(ANNA, LIILA, MARVIN minus LISA and DESPI)

Now, with Anna’s promotion,

(Congratulations Banana for a well deserved And long overdue promotion!)

Liila and I, well, we will become Will and Grace…

(LIILA, MARVIN minus DESPI, LISA and ANNA)

(only grace gained a lot of weight)

With Liila’s pending application… I’m scared that I might be left alone…
Who will I be now?

Superman/girl?

But he has a Lois Lane…

I don’t even have a LUIS.

Spiderman/girl?

But he has Mary Jane…

I don’t even have someone to marry me.
Batman/girl? But he has a Robin, so that wouldn’t be possible.

I have no one now…

I guess, I’ll just be Ultraviolet.

I might be alone but I’m still FABULOUS!

Please don’t think that I am not happy for your promotions.

In fact, I couldn’t be more proud.

I am just scared to lose the only reason I am still here in PS.
I love you guys…

You are the sisters I never had and the girlfriends I will never break up with.

Keep in touch!!
Mwuah!!

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I am the luckiest girl in the world to have friends like them and I love them with all my heart. Thank you Marvin (I had to edit some lines hahaha *)..........and you will always be the boyfriend that I will never break up with......
And like you always say, we can just look up because we are looking at the same sky......

Congratulations!!!!

2006-04-20T21:47:00.000-07:00

I can't really get up this morning because I still have the blues. But I got up anyway because I have to do what I gotta do and as usual I went online to check my email. Nakakaaliw because some of my friends just emailed to say hi like they know I'm feeling a little bit lonely especially Mikey galing! I'm also happy for Ina because somehow she's finding the happiness that she deserves. She's been through a lot and she deserves a break. I hope things will finally work out for all of us.

But the best news ever was Anna being promoted!!! I am sooooooooooooo happy!!! That really made my day. I knew she can make it ....of course she's my friend and partner in crime. Deng!!!! I miss those days dude!! Well I'll see you soon :P

Congratulations BanaAnnuh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luv yah!!!!

What the heck ulit........

2006-04-18T21:48:00.000-07:00

My horoscope for the day.......

"Things are shifting down, so conserve your energy and get ready for bad weather.

There's no question that you take to responsibility like a fish takes to water. But some days -- especially lately -- you've been feeling a little amphibious. That is, like you want to crawl out of the waters of responsibility now and then. And that's okay; everybody deserves a break sometimes. But today isn't one of the days when it's all right to check out. No take the plunge. You can handle the responsibility, and the water might even be refreshing."

------Well I think I have been in a "bad weather" for more than 8 months now, and I want to crawl out of this water for so long now but the waves keep tossing me back....... of course I was bitching about my day to Ivy again....

Ivy: You can either prove them wrong
Ivy: Or makisayaw ka sa kanila diba?
Me: Well I dont have to dance to their tune because we're not even listening to the same music!!

Anyway for all those confused people like me.........here's an excerpt from the song I sang in church 2 weeks ago (yes....I sing in church!!! It makes me feel good and why not I have the talent for it hehehe)

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust is heart.......

Our attitude determines our altitude.......

2006-04-13T10:18:00.000-07:00

I've been doing a lot of training this week and leadership was a part of it. I just want to share this excerpt from John C. Maxwell. And this is soooooo for me .....

"If you wish to travel far and fast, travel light. Take off all your envies, jealousies, UNFORGIVENESS, selfishness, and TEARS."

That is so true. I really feel that I'm slowly starting to heal and I look forward to travelling "light" again :-)

Happy Birthday Chester!!

2006-04-11T12:20:00.000-07:00

For the love of my life

"You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me "
---Celine Dion

Happy Birthday!!!

I can't believe that this pic was almost 6 years ago :-)

I love you BB!!! mwah!!

-------I pray for forever............

Wohoooo

2006-04-11T12:02:00.000-07:00

I think I'm slowly getting overwhelmed by my busy schedule, pero shempre kasama pa rin ang "Gulong ng Palad" sa shedule ko for the whole day. My senior manager wants me to be in a training call at 6:30am PST because the big guys are always starting their meeting at 9:30am EST. The good thing about it is that I can set up my own home office and I enjoy the commute from my bedroom upstairs.

I know I have a long way to go and definitely a lot of hardships but I love what I'm doing, it kinda reminds me of what I always use to do before in Pinas, go to meetings, attend training calls, meet people, and convince people you actually make sense and you know what you're talking about.....haha. Yesterday I was making my own manual, I was making it for 3 whole hours and then when I was making the last finishing touch and clicked on "save as" and opened the file, it turned into a bunch of codes I don't even understand. I must have saved it into another program and now I can't convert it. I was so frustrated I cried. What the heck! So I decided I'm just going to use what they gave me.

As soon as I get to figure out what to name our company and finish my website, I'll put everything here :P

"To be a millionaire you have to borrow a million"

Thank you

2006-04-06T21:53:00.000-07:00

Today my Aunt provided funds for me to start my own business. I will make it public as soon as I'm done with all the meetings and the trainings that I have to attend. I have been feeling so restless these days because I am so not used to "not" doing anything and now I think I'm actually going to have a life here.

So I'm just so thankful. I promise I will not fail them.

Ganon pala yun!!!

2006-04-04T22:15:00.000-07:00

I was watching Abc7 news (watching again!!!haha) and there was this segment on Online Searching Shortcuts of course I stay tuned kasi akala ko it would be "veeeeeerrrrrrrrry" informative.

Here are some of their tips:
"if you've ordered something online or are expecting a package, instead of logging onto the Federal Express website to track it, try this. Type in the tracking number in Yahoo's search box. In a flash you can find out the status of your order and the estimated delivery time. "

---------What?????I didn't know that!!! (I'm being sarcastic!)

"Say you want to call your spouse who's on a business trip in London but you don't know the time zone and don't want to wake them up. You can pull out an almanac to look up the time zone in that part of the world. Or you can go to the Yahoo search bar, type in "London time" and see exactly what time it is there. "

--------OMG yun lang!!

"What if your business partner is in Rome but you don't speak the language?
Just go onto AltaVista's translation page, type in "can you connect me to the Hilton," go to translate, click English to Italian, and you can ask the operator with confidence -"Potete collegarli al Hilton." "

------FYI Mr. Romero those things are not accurate, you might even be surprised how literal the translations are :) Remember guys the Babel fish thingy?? :) haha

"If a page has a lot of text and you're searching for a specific word, simply press the control key along with the letter "F" and then type in the word you're searching for. It will appear highlighted on the screen. "

-----OMG lang ulit!

But this next one is very helpful.....

"Google and Yahoo are the top search sites. Both are great for finding information. But if you just can't decide which one to search, try another site, twingine.com. Type in a topic and the site searches Google and Yahoo side by side. "

So yun lang, I thought it would be informative but that was so 5 years ago. But the Twingine was a good one :P

Flashback

2006-04-02T21:47:00.000-07:00

I was watching the news and today is the death anniversary of Pope John Paul II. I remember my reaction at the hotel lobby when this Singaporean girl broke the news to me and Ina while waiting for the driver to pick us up and bring us to the airport. I love that man, I was one of the lucky few to see him upclose and in person! I didn't get to touch him though but it was like seeing God. The feeling was so magical and indescribable. I'm thankful for my parents for making me go to that World Youth Day event.

Anyway this day was also our last day in HK. Arrgggggghhhhhhhh!! I'm sorry I just miss Ina because I don't have "true friends" here and whenever I feel depressed like this she would just pick me up, drive around, and I would be fine. Ok fine loner talaga ako dito and this is not good for someone who's used to having tons of people around. I don't know........ I was asking Biatchy here if there's something wrong with me or maybe I became so cynical about meeting new people because I'm having issues with "trusting" again....

Oh well this is my blog and I'm going to whine if I want to!!!!!!!hahaha....... And I'd probably whine for the next 6 months so just bear with me :P

Thank you.

Migraine girl

2006-04-01T14:50:00.000-08:00

I've been having migraine headaches for 2 days now, and no kind of pain reliever can make it go away. When I have this kind of attacks the only remedy is for me to throw up I don't know why it works but it works. The only problem is that I'm taking supplements that are time released and it's so expensive for me to waste it if I throw up. So I'll just wait until it gets so excruciating to handle and then I'll take some pills :P

Anyway this was my horoscope from last Monday:
"The answers may be unclear right now, but they'll emerge over the next few days."

And it did.....I got a mail from the USCIS (United States Citizenship and Immigration Services). I got an approval of my case which means that I am staying here. For days now I have been contemplating on going home but I can't make a decision. So I told myself I will just wait. I checked the status of my case and they told me it will take 120 days for them to give me a decision, which is great because I have at least 4 months to decide by myself haha, but in just 40 days I got an answer. I can't say that I'm not happy, I was ecstatic actually because I hired an expensive lawyer (who represented Manny Pacquio and that Pinoy guy from the Black Eyed Peas ...Apl.de. ap ...I think) and all the money was worth it. On the other hand this means that my ass is not going anywhere but here so I better put it together and stop being a baby. Sabi nga sa book ni Paolo Coelho....you can either be a victim of life or just enjoy the adventure. What the heck I might as well enjoy the ride. It seems that God wants me to be here, there's always a reason. I will definitely be back though, I recently realized how much I love Pinas...........but when?????

Only God knows...........

On a lighter note........

The results of your analysis say:
You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry. You are a social person who likes to talk and meet others. You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented. You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody! You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

So true!!!!

True strength is being able to hold it all together when everyone is expecting you to fall apart.....

2006-03-29T18:57:00.000-08:00

"Iha lalo ka atang gumaganda ngayon"...........naks naman si grandma hahaha. Well that was a comment from an old lady here that our family knows. Of course I was flattered and last weekend I got 3 more compliments just like that from two different persons. So I was thinking maybe because I was on a strict diet for almost 2 weeks now, or because I'm trying to get my old weight back or maybe finally ........finally I was able to forget the nightmare that I've been through........
I think I'm getting there and I'm only human. I'm still extremely homesick, I miss my friends, my mom and dad, and Chester, and surprisingly I didn't expect to miss Ina this much !!!!!

I'm kinda dissapointed because I was suppose to see Ivy this weekend kaya lang no comment!!!!!!! haha, Oh well we have next month of extensive planning :P I hope matuloy na :-)

Oh well.....

2006-03-25T10:31:00.000-08:00

Last night me and my cousins went clubbing...ok only one club because I'm wearing jeans :P Her friend from work is going to home to Pinas to study. The club is located inside my used to be favorite casino.......yes used to be....because this is the last time I'll ever bet on a casino....I will not "donate" anymore!! So Ivy when we go to Vegas in May please do not let me bet on anything-----under no circumstance!!! and no very convincing excuses from me!!!.......:P

After 3 hours of losing I decided to stop and just went back to the club and enjoy the music. All I can say is that a lot of people here dance really weird......like I have no idea what they're doing....was that a dance from the tribe they came from ---omg I'm so mean....hahaha, but I give them an A for effort. I can only imagine what Anna will say!!!! The only good thing that happend to me that night was this girl's compliment about my shoes----when I was ordering drinks her friends stopped me and told me "girl your shoes are as cute as hell!". I just said thank you but what they don't know is that they hurt as hell too! Thank God for the apple martinis I forgot all about it............Oh well that's me!

Not Bad...

2006-03-22T22:46:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that I am now 26 years old!!! only 4 more years to turning 30!! I am officially getting old....why God why!!!!!!??????!!!!! hahaha.....just kidding. I made a timeline of my life when I was in highschool......yes I was that OC h.s. days pa lang. Surprisingly I did everything I wrote there except my timeline ended at 25 years old. It was a school project and I was lazy to continue it...and guess what my life became a mess after that. I still keep that paper in my album of pictures from highschool ....and I want to burn it! hahaha

Anyway I don't like making a fuss about my birthday. I stopped having parties when I was 13. I don't know why but it makes me sad when it's my birthday. So I told my family here that I want it to be as normal as possible :P. On the eve of my birthday Ivy and Mikey called me. I think that was so sweet of Mikey making a 20 minute overseas call just to talk to me and Ivy. I miss Mikey...I miss having friends like him but thank God I have Ivy here even if were hours away. We were planning to conference in Ina but we couldn't figure it out hehehe. My BB got confused with the time difference so he just called me when I woke up. After that my parents called me......and as usual I was emotional as hell and crying for 3 hours after my parents called.

My family here was suppose to surprise me but I blew it because I refused to go out of the house ....hahaha. I was too lazy to get out of my usual sweat pants and shirt and besides it's "Gulong ng Palad" at 4:45pm and I wouldn't miss it for anything. So my family just got the food and balloons (Yes meron balloons and PINK party table cover hahaha!!) from the back of the car because I'm not going anywhere hehehe. They made it look like a kiddie party because I insisted I was just turning 18 hahaha. It was only us and the people from church because my Aunt wants them to pray for me...like a prayer dinner. It was just simple and I liked it.....very different from what I've gotten used to.... I didn't get drunk......

Thank you of course to my family, my BB, my fabulous bombest friends ever......Ivy, Ina, Mikey, Kiko, Marvin, Banana Anna, Liila, Mona girl, Mitch, and Winnie

Eleven Minutes

2006-03-18T21:09:00.000-08:00

My new favorite book of course from my favorite author Paolo Coelho......and omg is he speaking to me????????? Here are some excerpts, this book is worth every penny. He is a genius!

When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself."
-- "Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Coelho

“When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side. I saw this happen today as the sun went down. And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! … How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly?”

-- "Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Coelho

"In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone.That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it."
-- "Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Coelho

"If I had fallen asleep and suddenly woken up on a roller coaster, what would I feel? … Well, I would feel trapped and sick, terrified of every bend, wanting to get off. However, if I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but, while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement."
-- "Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Coelho

“Everything tells me that I am bout to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back where I came from because I didn't have the courage to say "yes" to life?”

-- "Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Coelho

Paparazzi.........

2006-03-17T23:30:00.000-08:00

So this is how a movie star feels like..... hahahaha

Here's the story....

There's this guy I know from church, I think he's in his 40s already, he's nice but he's being weird. I only see him every sunday at church so at first I thought I can tolerate his weirdness. He stares at me a lot. I know I'm not inventing because my friends and family notice it too. I was away for about a month so I didn't see him.

But when I started going to church again he would wait for me by the door and give me trinkets like chocolates or souvenirs that he got from his conventions.

Last Sunday he started taking candid pictures of me, like when I'm talking to people, eating etc. I asked him why he was doing that and he said he was going to post it in the church bulletin as activities at church.

Today we had this dinner thing and he was there, and he did the same thing again. He took candid snapshots of me again. I notice the flash. We thought it was funny at first but when he was doing it so many times already. It's getting really annoying. I think he's mental.

I don't want to make a fuss about it and I still want to go to that church, so I just act cool about it and distance myself from him. Who knows one day when he forgets his medication at home he might turn up with a gun on my face or something...and I'm not exaggerating......sad to say pero maraming "psychos" here. So I try to be nice to him. I'm not saying there's none in Pinas, but here you can't tell. They act normal yun pala they are taking medications to "act" normal.

Oh well.....for as long as he doesn't follow me around and lurk outside our house, I'm cool with it or else I'm gonna call the cops on him!!!!!

FROGS

2006-03-16T11:32:00.000-08:00

Something to share.........

Once upon a time there was a bunch of tiny frogs.... who arranged a running competition.
The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower.
A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants....

The race began....

Honestly:
No one in crowd really believed that the tiny frogs would reach the top of the tower.
You heard statements such as:
"Oh, WAY too difficult!!"
"They will NEVER make it to the top."
"Not a chance that they will succeed. The tower is too high!"

The tiny frogs began collapsing. One by one....
Except for those, who in a fresh tempo, were climbing higher and higher....
The crowd continued to yell, "It is too difficult!!! No one will make it!"
More tiny frogs got tired and gave up....
But ONE continued higher and higher and higher....
This one wouldn't give up!

At the end everyone else had given up climbing the tower. Except for the one tiny frog who, after a big effort, was the only one who reached the top!
THEN all of the other tiny frogs naturally want ed to know how this one frog managed to do it?

A contestant asked the tiny frog how he had found the strength to succeed and reach the goal?
It turned out....
That the winner was DEAF!!!!

The wisdom of this story is:
Never listen to other people's tendencies to be
negative or pessimistic.... because they take your most wonderful dreams and wishes away from you -- the ones you have in your heart!
Always think of the power words have.
Because everything you hear and read will affect your actions!
Therefore:
ALWAYS be....
POSITIVE!
And above all:
Be DEAF when people tell YOU that you cannot fulfill your dreams!
Always think:
God and I can do this!

Most people walk in and out of your life......but FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart
In two days tomorrow will be yesterday. Today is no special day and I have no particular reason for writing to you... I have no news to tell you.... nor any problems to discuss with you.... or gossip to tell you... It's only one of those happy moments... when I thought of you... and I would like to share these thoughts with you... MANY SMILES BEGIN BECAUSE OF ANOTHER SMILE...

To The World You Might Be One Person; But To One Person You Might Be the World.
You have been Tagged by the Froggy, which means you are a great friend!!

If you fall down 10 times,Stand up 11!!!!!!

Warning: Do not read!!

2006-03-15T10:29:00.000-08:00

I hate winter!! It makes me want to stay in my room the whole day and do nothing.....and I have this weird peaceful feeling when it's time to go to bed at night and then I pray to God...."please don't let the morning come too soon"......

I guess this is officially the start of my quarter-life crisis or the final stretch of it hahaha!!!

What happend to us????????

2006-03-13T22:16:00.000-08:00

.....we used to be so perfect.......

To the author of this site "http://theneverendinglovestory888.blogspot.com" I admire you so much for letting it out like that. You reminded me of myself before....during the time I had a temporary loss of good judgement...hahaha. I want you to know that you're not alone in this world and that a lot of people are going through the same thing right now.......I should know because I was once in that position...or I still am.....

But now I realized a lot of things and I don't really know if I should be thankful or not for going through all that bull crap. But if it weren't for that experience I would still be stuck in this make believe world that I was made to believe.....or forced myself to believe in. So now I know and I will not make the same mistakes again. I know now what love is really all about....

Friendships!

2006-03-12T17:21:00.000-08:00

I wanna post this here so that I can read it anytime I want to.....of course homesick pa rin ako and messages like these make me so happy..........I know super babaw ....but thanks guys for always making me smile even when were miles away!! Luv yah!!!

tOwnie
lisa!!! so ayan habang hindi surf controlled, tag galore kami sau. hehe dito sila sa pc ko... hahaha tc always. godbless.

Me: Thanks Toni girl dapat kasi wala ng surf control eh!!!!

LiiLa
actually i have seasons 1 and 2 (shempre pirated! hahaha) but season 2 is mejo malabo..so there! i love LB! hahahahaha!!!! catch you on YM some time! mwah mwah! luvya!
LiiLa
Hi LiSa! sup? we super miss you na! =( btw i just have to say, i'm so addicted to laguna beach right now! hahaha! late bloomer! i'm like so amped on stephen, he's such a cutie! bwahahahahaha!!!!!!! can't wait for the season 2 dvd!

Me: See.......... what did I just tell you!! It's so us di ba????? Hanging around the beach....only we have to travel 5 hours!!!! and Stephen is so hot!!!!!

bannanah
guess who?!! hahaha! ounta kami nila tj sa Bora sa April 7-10..finally some rest. super excited na ko!! si tj pala pumasa na sa law school! ako, i need to fix some of \my documents first..u know waht i mean..sshhh! hehehe!

bannanah
hi, it's me again..hahaha! nagtatake advantage kami habang di naka-surf control..hehe! so, what's keeping you bc?? kung wala, UMUWI ka na!!! as in NOW na!! hahahah! i remember the time we went to galera with ****..yuck! hahaha!

bannanah
hiyee!!! we just chanced upon your blog..not! hahaha! wassup? we miss yah so much! inphonic is going to galera next week! keep us posted! send emails! mwah!

Me: Haaaaaaaaay all I can see is that I miss you all so much, and please tell TJ that I'm so proud of him!! You two are going to be a KICK ASS lawyer someday.....I can tell!!!

What the....hail!!

2006-03-11T16:16:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning, looked outside my window to see snow on top of the mountains...it was so beautiful, only it's a little bit foggy.

And then after an hour.....it hailed. This is my first time to see hail ever and I don't know why :P It looks like small "sago" hehe.

But I still don't like this day...it's so gloomy and it's affecting my emotions.......this is not good!

"Life is short". What the hell?"

2006-03-08T10:28:00.000-08:00

My morning routine is....go to the bathroom, have coffee and go online....that's if I don't have anything to do. So this morning I checked my emails and Ina sent this to me. I have to say that this is so true!!

9 things I hate about everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when
I ask where the toilet is?
2 People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the
channel manually.
3 When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too".Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?
4 When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do
this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!
5 When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.
6 People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?
7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there
must have been something before it, couldn't be new.
8 When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?
9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

My favorite was number 8, whenever I hear people say that .......I'm like...."are you kidding????!!!" I know I'm ONLY 25...but for me it's been 25 loooooooooooooong years!!!!!!!!! Oh well I just had to post this......

Taste Temptation

2006-03-04T19:32:00.000-08:00

I'm so proud of my BB, last weak he hosted the Cookbook swap and Tea Party held at the newly-opened lounge at Fully Booked in Rockwell.

I know they are just starting and it's still going to be a long way, but he's working hard and slowly going to the top. I know it's really hard sometimes but I know that everything will work out well because this is what he loves.....and I'm so lucky not to worry about "cooking"!!! and I miss him so much!

For more info please visit http://dessertcomesfirst.blogspot.com/

Beginner's luck!

2006-03-04T11:30:00.000-08:00

My aunt got bored at 11:30pm last night and nagyaya to go to a casino, actually I was kind of hesitant because it's friday and it's Lent, but I went anyways. I thought it doesn't really count anymore since I started with the slot machine at 12:30 am...so technically it's a Saturday haha!

So we went to Pechanga, a casino just 30 minutes from where we live. There are a lot of casinos near our place but I never really got a chance to go, so it was my first time to go to a casino here.

I told myself, I'm only going to spend $40 and that's it. So I went to the slot machines kasi yun lang naman ang alam ko :P It's kinda weird because I've been putting m0ney to like four machines already and it keeps rejecting my bills, so I asked one attendant there because I thought sira lang yung machine. So after maybe a couple of machines finally one machine accepted my $20! After my 4th $1 dollar bet the machine kept ringing I thought sira nanaman but when I checked my credits were going up....so I'm like woohooooooo and silently praying that it will never stop!..................Well before that I told God......if I win enough to get me the car that I want (A Hummer 3 SUV......tight!!!!) and a plane ticket then I'm off the next day!!!!!!!

But I guess God didn't want me to come home yet....I only won a couple of hundreds which is actually not bad....not bad at all for a $40 investment and 2 hours of hitting the "spin" button!!

The other side of my family

2006-03-01T11:12:00.000-08:00

Last month I went to visit my Grandpa in Mountain View. I didn't go straight to my Grandpa's so I stayed in San Jose at my other Uncle's place because I was still waiting for my Aunt from Germany and my other Uncle from Seattle. My Grandpa just got out of the hopital that week but when we were about to visit him at home he was rushed to the emergency room again, so from the airport where we picked up my Aunt we went straight to the hospital. But my Grandpa was released because he didn't want to stay there anymore. So we all went home. There were like 4 incidents of going to the hospital after that but fortunately my Grandpa keeps regaining his strength, and I thank God for that.

I wasn't able to see him for 5 years so I'm so happy that I was able to spend time with him at least before anything happens.

Since my Grandpa's ok and we were all there. My family decided to show me aroung northern California. So we went to San Francisco for one week end, and then the other weekend we went to Monterey, Carmel, 17 mile drive, and the Pebble Beach. On my last day my Uncle threw a little party for me and it was so fun.

It's only now that I got to spend more time with them because usually it's just a day of visit and we all go home. It amazes me how similar I am with my Dad's side of the family. I didn't have any cousins my age and the eldest is 12 yrs. old, but my Uncles and Aunts are cool anyway so I hang out with them. We were so similar in a lot of ways, sometimes it's weird.

They wanted me to stay a little bit longer but I have to do some stuff here in Southern Cal. And nobody speaks Tagalog there and I miss TFC so much hahahaha.

Inphonic

2006-02-27T20:43:00.000-08:00

I grabbed this from Toni's blog...I miss you all so much!!! I know I could never find a bunch like these people here....I may have all the material things here but I could never find "real" persons like them...

Hugs...hugs...tear..tear :P

SoCal

2006-02-27T11:15:00.000-08:00

I'm back from visiting my grandparents in Sacramento. I stayed most of the time in San Jose at my Uncle's house to spend time with my cousins. I'm glad my Lolo is doing ok again, he's kinda weak still but I guess that comes with old age, in the two weeks that I was there we had to call 911 three times but I'm happy he's surviving. I will just post the pictures tomorrow ...later!

2006-01-31T22:13:00.000-08:00

I was watching TFC and I was surprised to see my friend from 15 yrs ago, Candice Grey. She and her friends were featured in this program called PIPOL. She was my classmate when I was taking up Jazz lessons when I was in gradeschool. She and her friends put up this foundation for less fortunate children in the Philippines and I'm so happy to know that a group of people are actually doing that.

I remember me and my friends from highschool thought of doing the same thing when we visited the orphans in Paco Manila.

I had the perfect childhood until I turned 14! hehe....That's why I am so fond of kids. I love kids!! I promise I will organize something like that next year....I promise! I hope my friends will help me ....wink wink!!!

Life is short...

2006-01-31T19:38:00.001-08:00

Today I received an email that my batchmate from highschool passed away. She had cardiac arrest while at work. I don't remember her being sickly so I don't know if she had a heart condition before. We're not that close but when someone your age dies you become affected. I knew her as a sweet nice girl so I know she's now in heaven. May she rest in peace.

The first thing that came to my mind when I heard about it is............"lucky bitch!!!!...getting out of this hell hole called earth too early!!!!!"

Well you can't blame me I'm feeling depressed these days, aside from being homesick, I heard yesterday that my Grandfather is in critical condition. They didn't exactly tell me it's that critical but when your Uncle tells you that "it is best to see him now in case this is the last time"...you kinda get the point. So next week I'll be going to Sacramento to see my Grandfather, it was long overdue I was suppose to go there months before but its 6 hours away from here so I keep postponing it. So I guess now it's about time.

Anyway, it got me thinking.......I should get in touch with my old close friends from highschool. "I" drifted from them. It was my fault anyway I got too busy with a lot of things. Someday all of us will soon pass and so I don't want the day to come wherein I will receive news that one of my used to be close friend passed. So I'm going to write a "sorry" email to them. I even left without saying goodbye to them and I know I hurt them because they might think that I just dropped them like that. It's just that my life got so complicated.

And it got me thinking again that this time I WILL BE GOOD! I'm so done with the wild side of me..if there ever was...hahaha. From now on when I'm extremely mad or disappointed with someone I will not plot on how to make their lives miserable hahaha....not that I've ever done it before!! :P From now on I will just be plain good......helpful, nice but not too nice, I will not be selfish......and when I'm really really cuckoo about a person or a situation instead of doing something stupid...I will just help the economy and shop for me and my loved ones or think of ways to make myself beautiful! hahahaha!!!! Then maybe.....just maybe..... when I'm good enough ...God will tell me ...it's time to relax!

So there.....I'm here because I'm being good and obedient..... if I may add :P I have done the things that I needed to do for now and there's nothing else to do but wait.

So I will wait and I will pray.

Faith is being sure of what you hope for..........

And to Ivy Joyce Lina.....may you rest in peace.

I love driving!!!

2006-01-26T22:05:00.000-08:00

Not!

Well my dream before was to become a sports car driver...sure because you're only on one track that you get to memorize so I guess fun.....

Kasi naman I never got to drive full time in Pinas....laging may driver! O di ba coolness.......manong driver was always there for me hahaha!!

But now I'm forced to, mejo suburbs kasi and beauty ko ngayon , bihira lang ang bus and mag commute, you can't get around without a car. So I have no choice.

Buti na lang I'm so lucky hindi pa ko nahuhuli ng police because I went pass too many stop signs. Hindi ko kasi napapansin na may stop sign, dapat sa freeway lang ako para walang stop sign, or they should always put it in the middle!!!! You know like the stop light! Or I think maybe I should stop daydreaming while driving...hahaha

5 years ago.......

2006-01-25T11:09:00.000-08:00

I was 20 years old and I was still in college. Me, Ina, and King lived in a pad near school. I forgot na nga lang the name of the building...University something.

Ina and me were in the same school when we were still in gradeschool so our paths crossed again because we were in the same class "BMATH"....and so was Kit, Mikey, The Cosing brothers, King, Kiko, Roger, and of course Chester. Ivy was King and Roger's friend from another class kaya I got to know her too. So there.... that was my group of friends for 5 years now....tatlo lang kaming girls but it was super fun. Everything was so simple then. Even after graduation we make it a point to catch up as often as we can, most of the time in Starbuck's Rockwell kahit na according to Ivy "hindi naman lahat nagco-coffee"! hahaha

My only real problem was that my hips were too wide. I gained weight and I think I was 115lbs then. But my BB loved me anyway...one month after we knew each other we started to date exclusively...from strangers....magic...hahaha!! EMO!!

Back then you can't really make complicated goals for yourself since you don't really have a choice at that time but to finish school.

So simple and so fun....

And now.........well actually it was all fun I met new friends not only friends but best friends!.....until I had a temporary loss of good judgement....here I go again! Last night I fell asleep listening to Splendor's song "I think God can explain".

Well I learned my lesson......I will never complicate my life again and I will not even engage in a conversation with complicated people........I'm going to start with pristine slate.

That's right Manny.....NO FEAR!!!!

2006-01-21T23:18:00.000-08:00

I have never been so happy in almost 6 months! Manny Pacquiao won!!!!

I never understood my mom's fascination with boxing before. I mean what kind of sport is that???!!! But when you're feeling so homesick, everything from where you came from makes so much sense.

I wanted Manny to win so bad. I prayed and even took it as a sign of something. I told myself....if Manny wins then I'll make it.

I thought it was impossible because he started kinda weak. And as usual the judges were biased and in favor of Morales. But by the 10th out of the 12th round...Manny won by Technical Knock Out!

I was shouting all throughout the fight. We had a party because of the re-match and as usual drank too many margaritas...so I was hyper. My cousins were like "Lisa ang puso mo!!" hahaha. My 2 yr. old cousin even cried because he thought I was mad because I was shouting a lot!

I was so happy I almost cried....I'm soooooo feeling what Manny's wife felt.

In an interview before the fight, Morales said that he's doing it for himself and Manny said that he's offering it to his country. I think in that answer alone we already know who the winner is.

Manny's my new hero........NO FEAR.

So Manny you can retire now...you're a legend!

And whatever happens, I will always be proud to be a Filipino!

It's official

2006-01-19T21:26:00.000-08:00

I'm lonely and the loneliness is palpable.....

God's favor is on its way.....

2006-01-15T21:15:00.000-08:00

Yes, I know there is something better for me out there and God knows it.

I'm suppose to be turning down something but until this last minute I still can't let it go. I prayed to God to give me this job, and guess what He gave it to me (again be careful what you ask for, you might get it and not know what to do about it!). Well to make the long story short I was offered something that I wanted but I couldn't handle it right now. I think it's too early for me to be out there by myself at this time. I know I can, if I want to, it's just that I'm not ready and I'm not up for the challenge. So I'm asking a favor from God for something else again.

I'm usually a straightforward person, it's just so difficult because the people behind it was so nice and sincere to me. I don't know what's the purpose behind meeting those people, I'm sure I'll know it in another time. I just want to say sorry it took me until this time to finally say it to them because I'm still hoping I would change my mind, after all it's just a 3 hour drive away from where I live. But I'm not ready.

Oh well, like what they always say......there are still plenty of fishes out there.

On a lighter note......

I was watching TFC ( my fave channel right now!) and saw the ad for "Panday" of Jericho and I must say that I have never seen him that way before!......He is soooooooooooooo hot!!!!!!

I crush you Jericho!!!!!

Sorry pag pasenshahan nyo na ko kasi may shortage ng cute guys dito! Hahaha. The only cute guys here are cousins ko pa!!!! Well meron naman kahit papano, it's just that they're not my type :P

Oh well back to what I have to do!!

Because everybody deserves a chance to fly!

2006-01-13T10:44:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I had this feeling that I can't bring my old life back anymore. So much has been done (compliments of me..thank you very much...I'm being sarcastic!). So I just have to accept.

But you can't blame me, I had a good life. Sometimes it's just so hard to start all over again that the easiest way to go is just to back out. But then again it's just so hard!!!! The emotional side of it is killing me.

So there.....I will just make everything work. I know I can accomplish anything if I just put my mind and faith into it. Now all I have to do is convince myself. Which I think is the hardest part.

This is from my best friend Marvin, he never fails to make me laugh and gives me words of wisdom and I don't know where he gets it. (ha ha)

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more. -Grey's Anatomy

And this is for my BB, because I've been through hell and just making my way out, and you're still there for me......

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick with u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick with you

TFC!

2006-01-10T09:57:00.000-08:00

I answered Ivy's survey below, although not all of it applies to me and I won't elaborate on which one! :P

Yesterday I subscribed to TFC (The Fillipino Channel) since hindi naman ako makakauwi (sigh!). I called the customer service of our cable company 3 times to have it activated and at last after 5 hours na activate na rin, kasi dapat 15 minutes lang so as usual 15 minutes turned 5 hours.

So there I watched it for 5 hours straight! It was so nostalgic watching it. But it felt great.

I don't know how long I will be like this. I hope the child within me rise above.

Survey

2006-01-10T09:51:00.000-08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Palm Springs Tramway

2006-01-06T18:01:00.000-08:00

Taking a break from my emotional life! It's winter so why not check out the snow 30 minutes away from where I live. We live in the valley so hindi abot ang snow dun. Ok na sana itong picture pero si granny gustong sumali...hahaha I don't know her but, what the heck!

So I rode the biggest rotating cable car in the world to climb 10800 feet, I'm not scared of heights so it was fun for me. I didn't go skiing or anything kasi when I discovered I had to climb up, wag na lang. Another time and in another mountain maybe where they have another cable to bring me up! haha

So was it effective? Well kinda...

To stay or not to stay......

2006-01-05T20:37:00.000-08:00

Maybe I have to forget who I was to know who I will be.....or maybe I don't want to forget, or maybe I can't forget.

I have so many decisions to make and too little time. I'm stuck in a rut.

Sabi nga ni Ivy, "ayan kasi you always get what you want, but are you happy?"

When I pray kasi laging "God, this is what I want please help me". And God gives it to me, so maybe this is God's way of telling me that this is exactly the reason why people don't always get what they want.

So from now on, My prayer will be...."God, please help me accept your will".

I know, this is so not me. I miss my old me.

Love nanaman!!!!

2006-01-02T22:05:00.000-08:00

"If I could tear out my heart and hurl it into the current, then my pain and longing would be over, and I could finally forget" (By the River Piedra).

I hate this! Emote nanaman ako! Whose idea is it anyway to read my entries from last year!

Bad, bad, bad idea!!!!!!!!

So there I was reading my words of wisdom for myself and suddenly "his" picture was there. And suddenly my whole body went numb and my feet got colder. Like I saw a ghost. Literally from my past. It's there right in front of me. Please give me a barf bag!!!

What was I thinking???!!!!?????

I'll just edit it tomorrow and delete that entry from last year, but not now because I might not be able to sleep. I already drank one full glass of red wine and hindi man lang ako tinamaan pero it was helpful kasi malamig.

Oh God help me!

New year!

2006-01-01T20:56:00.000-08:00

I cannot even begin to describe my feelings as the year 2005 ended! Sure, I was in a party waiting for the ball to drop in New York city (of course replay na yun since they were ahead 3 hours) and when it was 12 midnight everybody hugged me, but I have never felt so hollow in my entire life. I was like a robot in a happy mode. I know....so pathetic. And it's such a cliche to say na iba talaga pag Christmas and New year in Pinas. I used to hate the Philippines because there were just so many things going on but now I love it! You don't know what you got until it's gone.

I used to get annoyed by people getting so excited in the Philippines the eve of the new year. I'm like "ano ba yan it's only 6pm of December 31 and may fireworks na?!", but now I understand. Oh yes! I miss it so much even the cars going around our village with the megaphone greeting a happy new year at 6am. I miss going to mass on New Year's eve, I used to think what's the point but my Dad would always make us go....To end and start the new year right daw....and now it all makes sense. It's so dry here. No spirit at all. I'm thinking, would it be different if I were in Times Square?

So anyway I called Ivy in the morning because I was so exhausted over nothing during new year's eve. I'm like "Hiyee! New Year!, sorry hindi ko masabing happy eh haha" and I'm kinda glad she felt the same, although I felt sorry for both of us. I was with so many people but I have never felt more alone. What a good way to welcome the New year! Wohoooo!. Not.

Next holiday season I will do my best to be able to go home, even just for the holidays.

I have never felt so scared in my entire life as this new year is starting. I have so many choices to make and I don't know which one to choose. Like the song "how do I begin at the beginning of an end". I'm kinda relieved these days because I'm starting to forget and leave the bad memories of 2005 behind, but some days I still remember. And those days that I remember, I wish Ina was here too, she'd understand.

I'm sorry if all I write here are somewhat complaints, but I can't help it I'm homesick ..haha. Ivy said this is just normal, she felt exactly the same on her 5th month here and wait 'til my 6 month daw. I'm like "what" hindi pa matatapos?!!!...this is so frustrating!

So as always I will just keep my positive attitude.

I wish I could just move forward and not look back.

Wish me luck!

The year end survey

2005-12-30T10:32:00.000-08:00

what did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?

Moving to another country alone.

did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I did not make any , I forget about it anyway. But this year my resolution is to stay away from A-holes.

Did anyone close to you give birth?

Mavic and Weng, and I'm so sorry I got caught up with a lot of things that I didn't even come to see them.

Did anyone close to you die?

My grandmother, a month after I left.

What countries did you visit?

Hongkong, China

What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?

Peace of mind

what date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory and why?

August 15, 2005, it was the day I left my "life"

what was your biggest achievement of the year?

I guess having the courage to start a new life, But I didn't know it was going to be that freakin' hard!

what was your biggest failure?

I have no idea which one...har har har!

did you suffer illness and injury?

I almost had bronchitis.

what was the best thing you bought?

I love shopping, so I can't decide which one either.

whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

J------------- I cannot even mention the name! I hate myself for giving that person the right to make me feel like a door mat.

where did most of your money go?

I have no idea.

what songs will always remind you of 2005?

Crazy (K-C and Jojo), When I'm thinking about you (The Sundays), Cry on (112)

compared to this time last year, are you:

a. happier or sadder

Sadder

b. thinner or fatter

Fatter-but I'm working on it!

c. richer or poorer

Generally ...Richer!....you can't have everything.

what do you wish you'd done more?

I wished I paid more attention to important things.

How many one-night stands?

What?? None!

what was your favorite TV program?

Of course...Friends for the past 10 years

do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Oh hell yeah!

what was the best book you read?
God calling by AJ Russell, I recommend this book to everybody. This book kept me literally alive.

what was your greatest musical discovery?
Kanye West (does he count?)

what did you want and get?
Everything I planned on getting except that I'm not sure if I still want it.

what was your favorite film of this year?
None

what did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
As usual work. I don't like celebrating my birthday. I turned 25.

how would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Fashionably classic. I stick to the basics with a little somethin' somethin' ;P

what kept you sane?
My friends and family

which celebrity/ public figure did you fancy the most?
Jennifer Aniston

what political issue stirred you the most?
The issue with the President.

who did you miss?
Right now? I would give anything to see my mom, dad, brothers and Chet

who was the best person you met?
None.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
When someone loves you, try not to shit on it.

what was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself?
That I was almost next to perfect and I should stop feeling sorry for myself.

what did you like most about yourself this year?
I am stronger and more matured.

what did you hate most about yourself this year?
I was gullible and stupid.

quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"I think God can explain" (The Splendor)

was 2005 a good year for you?
No, but it taught me the most valuable lessons in life.

what was your favorite moment of the year?
This year was not a good year.

what was your least favorite moment of the year.
When my grandmother died.

where were you when 2005 began?
I was at home in the Phils.

who were you with?
My family

where will you be when 2005 ends?
Hemet, California

who will you be with when 2005 ends?
My family here in Cali

what was your favorite month of 2005?
July 2005

did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
Hell yeah and good riddance!

did you miss anybody in the past year?
I miss my old friends.

what was your favorite record from 2005?
Mariah Carey's Emancipation of Mimi

how many concerts did you see in 2005?
None

did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
Yes and I like it! haha

Do a lot of drugs in 2005?
No to drugs

you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
A lot and I promise not to do it again

how much money did you spend in 2005?
OMG please don't make me remember!

what was your proudest moment in 2005 ?
I overcame my fears.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
I knew I would never see my grandmother again the day I left, so I should've hugged her longer than I did.

what are your plans for 2006?
I plan to make my life better this year, no more stupid decisions!

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I learned a lot of "life" lessons this year. I learned that material things does not matter if you're not with the people that you love and care for you. It took a lot of heartache for me to realize that...and 20,000 miles if I may add!
But no regrets. I know that I am a strong person but I didn't realize how strong I was until now. I will own up to my choices and not quit. I will play the hand that I was given.
I'm not a religious person before and I hardly prayed. Maybe this is God's way of telling me how powerful He is and he sure made his point. I pray everyday like all hope depends on God. I pray for faith. I could not have made it this far without praying and I'm thankful that I was able to learn that lesson early in life.

What are your wishes for the new year?
I wish for peace.
Peace. peace.

All is well.

For Anna

2005-12-28T15:12:00.000-08:00

Dude...this too shall pass!!!! and remember your acronyms!!!!!

T
R
I
C
K

Wala lang just wanna make you smile :P

I super miss you! and before anything else...How's Max and Jaipur?? hehehe

Merry Christmas!

2005-12-25T11:55:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas to everybody!

Me and my cousins

All I can say is that I love life because I have a positive attitude but deep inside I wish something else. This is my first time away from the people that mattered to me most, although I can certainly feel the love that my family here gives me, it's still not the same. So I just cried most of the day and went to our family party at night. I didn't even feel like greeting most of the people, only my family here (because I have to!), My mom, dad, and brothers (which I ended up crying for for 3 straight hours), Chester, Ina (sis, I'm sorry I didn't call you because I already cried for 3 hours! hehe but you know I love you!), and lastly Ivy (thanks for the puzzle book advice!).

The Happiest place on earth

2005-12-25T11:31:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I went to Disneyland in Anaheim because I was so sad from being away for Christmas, anyway it was beautiful, and I screamed my lungs out when I was riding the roller coaster or whatever ride that would make me drop 50 feet (haha!). I wish I can live there so that whenever I feel so hurt by the what has happend I would just ride on the Splash mountain and drop 50 feet :P
So here are some of the pictures, I'm still organizing my album online....

Splash mountain

Me and Aladdin

The Parade

My Christmas Wishlist

2005-12-20T11:12:00.000-08:00

Everybody has one so ako rin di ba....anyway wish lang naman eh (hint ...hint!!!), pero dreamlist ata ito hahaha...what the heck!

1. A sony DCR-DVD7 DV Camcorder
(to record memorable moments! hahaha)

2. A handheld GPS Unit like the Street Pilot because I don't like reading maps and California is so big

3. IBM ThinkPad x40

4. Logitech MM22 Speaker system (naks di ba!) .....for my new place (crossing fingers!)

5. A Skin Spa Microdermabrasion system

6. Any Proactiv Solution Product

7. World peace!

21 Suggestions for Success

2005-12-20T10:42:00.000-08:00

1. Marry the right person. This one decision will determine 90 percent of your happiness or misery.
2. Work at something you enjoy and that's worthy of your time and talent.
3. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
4. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.
5. Be forgiving of yourself and others.
6. Be generous.
7. Have a grateful heart.
8. Persistence, persistence, persistence.
9. Discipline yourself to save money on even the most modest salary.
10. Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.
11. Commit yourself to constant improvement.
12. Commit yourself to quality.
13. Understand that happiness is not based on possessions, power, or prestige, but on relationships with people you love and respect.
14. Be loyal.
15. Be honest.
16. Be a self-starter.
17. Be decisive even if it means you'll sometimes be wrong.
18. Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life.
19. Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did.
20. Take good care of those you love.
21. Don't do anything that wouldn't make your Mom proud.

H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

and this is my number 22.

When someone gives you love..............try not to shit on it!

Here I go again

2005-12-14T21:43:00.000-08:00

I read this from Ala Paredes' blog, like I said I am not a good writer, and what she said perfectly describes what I feel right now, so if she really wrote this.......ding it!, you're a good writer!
So I decided, there is no turning back.......

I will undoubtedly lose my way, take wrong turns, and find myself in dark forests of despair.
But there will be guardians, friends or mentors who will meet me along the way to show me the right path.
There will also be sightseeing, new landscapes to take in, new things to learn, the wind in my ears, the blood rushing through my veins, the wonder of being alive.
And of course, there is the great chance that I might meet danger along the way and be destroyed.
But heroes in myths, when slain, are always reborn into someone better.

And as with all heroes, I am forbidden to return until I have found what it is I'm looking for, my treasure.
***

My sails are woven out of hopes and dreams.
The winds of fate will blow me towards my destination.
I am the captain.
Faith is my first mate.
My heart is my compass.
Love will be my anchor.

At last!

2005-12-10T14:29:00.000-08:00

At last, yesterday I got my ID, I'm tired of carrying that temporary worn out paper that I have or carrying my passport for identification! Of course I had to delete some personal information on the ID like my driver's license number, address, etc. because I don't want to be a victim of Identity theft!, My friend's friend posted her ID on friendster with the complete information! Girl, you have have to delete that....I mean what the heck were you thinking.....or were you even thinking! (Ooops harsh!) hehehe.

Anyway I hate my picture here!

Getting what you ask for

2005-12-07T12:40:00.000-08:00

I'm not really a writer but for some reason, writing my frustrations and emotions here is like therapy.

This year is almost over so I'm thinking of writing this now before I get too busy.

This year they said was suppose to be my year, but howcome it doesn't feel like it. I had only 2 wishes for this year and that is to travel and move to another place to start a new life......and guess what........ I got it!

So far this has been the highlights of my year...

Going to the beach with my oh so fabulouso friends, It was so memorable because it was pure fun!

My Hongkong and China trip with Ina...

and lastly I moved to California........

and now it's December....

I got what I wanted but somehow it only made me more lonely, I tell my friends I miss them everyday (I hope they don't get tired of hearing that! hehe), I miss my Mom, and my family! I miss Chester (Oh God I do!)!

(This was taken 5 years ago)

I miss my old life! I just wish I can go back and do the right thing, I wonder if it would make any difference. But they said that God does not make mistakes, he puts us where we should be....so should I be in this place? So I decided I should move forward and go on. I'll just do my best, pray that this loneliness will not succumb me. I will think of my new "wants" in life...and this time it will not only include myself but other people that matters to me as well. So Cali here I come!

Please God

2005-12-06T19:29:00.000-08:00

I've been having nightmares for 3 days now....and if you're my really close friend you know what kind of "nightmare" I'm talking about!

When will this end!!! Oh God I hope not for 2 years, I can't keep thinking about it! I read this book and it said that we should forget the past and help ourselves because if we keep on thinking about it, we only end up hurting ourselves. I think I'll just give up on forgetting. So please God help me to let go......please.......

From Papa

2005-12-05T10:52:00.000-08:00

The Concert
When the house lights dimmed and the concert
was about to begin, the mother returned to
her seat and discovered that the child was missingSuddenly, the curtains parted and spotlights
focused on the impressive Steinway on stage.
In horror, the mother saw her littleboy sitting at the keyboard, innocently picking out
"Twinkle,Twinkle Little Star."
At that moment, the great piano master made his entrance, quickly moved to the piano, and
whispered in the boy's ear,
"Don't quit.""Keep playing."
Then, leaning over, Paderewski reached
down with his left hand and began filling
in a bass part. Soon his right arm reached
around to the other side of the child,
and he added a running obligatio.
Together, the old master and the young novice
transformed what could have been a frightening situation into a wonderfully creative experience.
The audience was so mesmerized that they couldn't recall what else the great master played.
Only the classic,
" Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star."
Perhaps that's the way it is with God.
What we can accomplish onour own is hardly noteworthy.
We try our best, but the results aren't always
graceful flowing music. However, with the
hand of the Master, our life's
work can truly be beautiful.

The next time you set out to accomplish great feats,
listen carefully.

You may hear the voice of the
Master, whispering in your ear,

"Don't quit." "Keep playing."
May you feel His arms around you and
know that His hands are there, helping you
turn your feeble attempts into true masterpieces.
Remember, God doesn't seem to
call the equipped, rather, He equips the 'called.'

Life is more accurately measured by the lives you touch than by the things you acquire.
May God bless you and be with you always!

and
remember ,
"Don't quit."
"Keep playing."

November 28: Happy Birthday!

2005-12-04T22:01:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Ibyang!!!!

Ok ...so I'm busted na late ako nag-update kasi naman for some reason bakit wala na yung part where you can set up the date and time here sa blog :P

Anyway, Happy Birthday!! I pray that God will bless you with everything that you wish for and I thank Him for making us friends because I seriously don't have an idea what I'd be now if you're not my friend!!!!! So thank you for putting up with my craziness, I know you want to just slam my head against a wall so many times :P but despite everything you we're still there for me (tear tear...hehe)....So Happy Birthday!!! Luv Yah!

Nov. 24 Happy Thanksgiving

2005-11-29T10:22:00.000-08:00

I was so excited yesterday because it's Thanksgiving today, only when I woke up I was not in the mood again....I don't know why but I have the blues lately.

Anyway we went to my cousin's house just 10 minutes away from here for lunch...

We stayed there until about 3pm, it was fun I was just watching the Filipino channel of ABS and GMA, I didn't really mingle with anybody since I was not in the mood and watching the Filipino channel makes me happy!.....I know how mushy can I get :P As usual there was a lot of food kasi naman dito parang galit mga tao sa food kaya madaming obese (sorry for the obese folks!), so I just indulged myself with 3 bottles of Daquiri while watching the Filipino channel....how pathetic!

At 4pm we all drove to Oceanside for dinner to my other Aunt's place, so kainan nanaman hindi pa nga digested mga kinain ko, I have to eat again...goodluck!! So I got food anyway just to be polite. I was trying to hide my plate when my other uncle saw my food plate......so he said "is that all you're getting?", so I'm like "I'll be back for a second", kahit na hindi naman ...hahahaha, Alam nyo naman ako allergic sa food! hehehe:P

So anyway, I'm so not in the mood today and that's me slumping on a couch, I didn't even talk to anybody even if it's obvious that they want to engage in a conversation with me:P So I just set up the videoke and sang my heart out, tapos when I got bored I just pretended to watch tv.

I was telling Ivy...what the heck is wrong with me today???? I had so many "opportunities" today (*wink wink Ivy) but I wasted it! Oh well I hope I get over this feeling!

Happy Thanksgiving!

The worst way to find out who you really love

2005-11-18T18:57:00.000-08:00

I have learned my lesson and it is all clear to me now. I don't know if I got bored this year or some evil spirit got to me, but I sure learned my lesson.

I remember praying 5 years ago for a guy like Chet and so God gave him to me. I have given up on almost everything numerous times for the past 5 years and Chet was always there to pick me up and give me a push to try harder. He would finish my school work for me, run errands, pay for this pay for that, cooked for me, talk to people for me, gave me a lot of things, brought me to places, you name it he's done it for me, I was a real bitch but he tolerated all of that......and what did I do?~~~~nothing! Majority of the guys are assholes I swear! and I took it all for granted thinking it was just right that he's like that......until I had a "temporary loss of good judgement" (yes, that's what I like to call it)! A loss of good judgment for one year~~~ I mean what the hell am I thinking!! Despite everything I did to him, he still loves me.

I have been making tons of plans, but it's all clear to me now, all those plans lead to him.

I don't know what will happen to us because we're so far away from each other right now, but I pray everyday that one day we will be together again, just like the old times.

In my search for the truth....I became the lie

2005-11-17T18:52:00.000-08:00

Strangers Again

Long before we ever touched
Long before we knew too much
I wish we were strangers again
Long before we ever kissed
Long before I ever missed you
I wish we were strangers again
I want yesterday to come back again
Nothing is as simple as I once knew
Why can’t everything be the way it was
Before the day that I lost you?
Long before the afterglow
Long before our tears fell slow
I wish we were strangers again

~~Ari Hest~~

Have you guys watched Jim Carey's movie, Eternal Sunshine/Spotless Mind? I wish that's possible, having a brain surgery to take out that certain memory from your mind.

If you're going through hell just keep going.....

2005-11-08T21:56:00.000-08:00

I borrowed you're entry Marvin and made it my title hehe, no reason I just like the meaning :P

So what's new with me? Same old...just cruisin, sometimes I would panick because for the first time in my life I have no idea exactly what I want and what to do about it. I mean, I do have a vague idea of what I want but somehow I enjoy not doing anything! Hahaha! I am faced with a lot of choices and I can't make a decision. Sure I get bored sometimes because for years now I got used to being busy...always checking my schedule etc. etc...busy weekends and busy weekdays...

So I figured why not slack off a little bit, sit back, relax, and trust God. I'm tired about worrying so whatever happens bring it on, I have already proven myself that I can do anything anyway if I just put my mind into it.

Let go.....chillax....and I can't wait to go skiing!

And here I go again with the "I miss" thing! I miss my best friend Daisy, hurry up and get your butt here! :P

Happy Halloween!!!!

2005-10-31T23:05:00.000-08:00

Today I went trick or treating with my cousins, it was just around our community and the kids we're so cute!! I didn't have any costume because I didn't plan on going out anyway, It was after dinner so I thought exercise din ang maglakad lakad hehe :P

Anyway I watched Laguna Beach and poor LC, Jason cheated on her again with Jessica! I mean poor LC, I can totally relate to her, but I feel for Jessica. For some reason she couldn't let go of Jason, which I totally understand!! I hate all "Jasons"......... and that's a metaphor!

Because of You

2005-10-25T11:20:00.000-07:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because you know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

"Kelly Clarkson"

From Marvin....It shall pass

2005-10-24T11:46:00.000-07:00

I tried but I failed... yet again

And so, the universe has conspired again.... and for the umpteenth time, it plotted against me. Too bad there was emotional investment already. Not to mention the time I’ve spent waiting for his arrival. Hence the reason of my depression over the past few days and the coming days or weeks or even months…

It’s bad news for me; albeit, it's rather good news for the people directly involved. I certainly feel that like Humpty Dumpty who got broken into several pieces, my heart will never be made whole again…

It’s funny and so ironic that I’m not the Mr. Right for the person whom I deemed to be my Mr. Right.

Sorry guys, I told you there isn't a boy to boot. It’s more like I was booted out. hehehe! Next time I meet someone so eligible, I hope the titan destiny will be on my side for a change.

And while Humpty Dumpty had all the king’s horses and all the king’s men, what he didn’t have were some of the brightest, nicest and most wonderful family and friends. Thank you guys for rallying around me by giving me sound advice and words of encouragement to cheer me up… always making me believe that between the two us, he lost more…

And like what I always say, "This too shall pass" hence, I’m back on the prowl.

On to the next guy please....

~~~~~Well you know what they say...birds of the same feather flock together! I've got 3 words for you..........Shake it off!!

2005-10-23T02:04:00.000-07:00

I was about to sleep kaya lang I thought of visiting Marvin's blog, and I saw the slide show that Anna and Liila made him and maluha daw ba ko! I suddenly felt this stabbing sadness in my heart.....

I miss you guys so much!!!

At last!

2005-10-17T00:06:00.000-07:00

Today I went to Fresno to go visit Ivy...at last after all these months. So I stayed at Ivy's house for 5 days.

Honestly mejo suburb ang drama ng city ni Ivy so there's not much to do where they live. Pero we still had a blast. So the first day we just took care of some "important" things (wink wink) and I'm so happy it turned out okay naman or else disaster ang trip ko wahahahaha. The next day we watched "In her shoes" and we can soooooooooo relate!!! We we're kinda worried kasi baka hindi magustuhan ni Nash aka Nardo (Ivy's brother) yung movie pero pumayag naman sha manood na din hehehe:P

The next day naman we went out shopping .......I know I know...shopping again.....sorry pero I like to help the US economy by shopping :P Tapos I got into crocheted scarves so why not learn how to crochet di ba??? Me~~~crocheting!! Yes!!! So Tita Mercy (Ivy's mom) was kind enough to show me how...so I'm like domesticated to the max already hahaha. So watch out for my scarves

(Nice pic Nash!! hehe)

On my last night there we went to the salon, and we had mexican hairdressers and I think they got carried away and styled our hair after cutting it, eh as if naman we we're going to a bar or something eh wala naman dun. But we enjoyed our new do kasi ang galing and feeling namin ang ganda ganda talaga namin hahaha. So afer that we just went out for coffee para naman hindi masayang yung hairdo namin. Too bad no guys around just boys (just kidding!!) :P.

I didn't feel too bad for leaving because at least me and Ivy are in the same state, 4 hours by plane and 7 hours by train but at least the same state hehehe.

Ivy's family was soooooooooooo great. They made me feel so at home. I mean very much at home as in Ivy took it to the next level! Kasi naman in my room I had my own TV with laptop and wireless connection pa!! And I'm so greatful to Ivy's family kasi they made me feel like I was so special Tita Mercy, Tito Dante, and Nash had to go on leave from work while I was there para lang asikasuhin ako and I was so touched. I had so much fun with all of them lalo na yung mga hirit na nakakatawa ni Nash. Kala ko pa naman quiet type sha pero akala ko lang pala yun hahahaha. They are a beautiful family that's why they are so blessed.

Anyway I'll see you again. Next stop the east coast :P

Shopping

2005-10-15T23:36:00.000-07:00

Today I went to Desert hills to go shopping at Cabazon, I've always wanted to go there the past month kasi depressed ako kaya lang wala ako kasama so buti na lang this weekend meron ako kasama.

So anyway Cabazon has 130 outlet stores of branded stuff like Coach, A/X, Polo, Prada, etc. you name it nandun lahat as in kulang ang isang araw and super mura kasi sale because they're getting rid of the summer stuff dahil mag-winter na. Shempre enjoy na enjoy ako because if shopping would have been a sport ...I am a gold medalist! wahahaha.

The place is so big sometimes we have to drive the car just to go the other side of the outlet. So anyway I just bought some winter stuff but mostly yung mga sale for summer...why not! I can use it for next summer hahaha, and besides it won't snow in this part of Cali so it doesn't matter.

Well okay na sana kaya lang when I went inside some stores like Ann Taylor I got surprised that most of the items were "Made in the Phils.", I don't know if maaasar ako or what kasi nagpunta pa ko dito para mag shopping tapos sa Pinas pala ginawa which is kinda weird. But I was so proud kasi shempre lahat ng designer stores that I went to meron laging made in the Phils. I'm not really brand conscious pero unbranded stuff shrink agad when you put it in the clothes drier kaya it's better to buy branded stuff it's worth it naman. So guys if I were you, go to the Karl Edwards bazaar in Le Pavillion in Roxas Boulevard Manila where they sell branded stuff like Calvin Klein etc for export daw kasi because they're original :P, and while you're there visit na rin the "Taste Temptation" pastry stall hehehe ~~~mag advertise ba raw!

For he's a jolly good fella!

2005-10-10T23:32:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Marvin!!

This poem is for you...

Marvin and Me

In this world all things come and go,

And it's hard to know what the future may hold.

Nothing really stays the same,

And when we least expect it our lives are changed.

If something ever changes

And we happen to lose touch

Please know that I'll always think of you

And miss you very much.

So before the world changes

I just wanted to say

I'm thankful that we're friends

Yesterday and today.

With time and fortune on our side

I hope we never part

But if we do, remember

You are forever in my heart

I'm not much of a writer so pagpasenshahan mo na yang poem hahahahaha!!

Anyway ...I don't really have anything to say, I just feel like typing and writing something because I can't sleep and I don't feel so good.

I just watched Laguna Beach and feeling highschool nanaman ako ...I love Stephen!! I hope he sees me here one day and ask me to marry him hahaha (ok! I know it's like a thousand light years from happening!!) ..but who knows!! Maybe if I'll hang in Laguna Beach like everyday.....he will see me!!

Okay. Fine. Siguro inaantok na ko. I'll just sleep then and maybe see him in my dreams :P

Right!

2005-10-09T22:08:00.000-07:00

My cousin visited me today. She's 50, has 3 kids, and has a RX330 (I'm so jealous!). I don't really have cousins close to my age, the closest is 19yrs old, married, and lives like 2 hours away from me.

Anyway since she was visiting I thought of cooking seafood pasta. I've gotten better at cooking haha...the other day I cooked rice ( yes.. I know how to use a rice cooker now!..and the dishwasher and the washing machine etc etc...but not yet the vacuum cleaner...don't worry I'll get there!). This undomesticated goddess has suddenly transformed into I don't know what. I remember back home when I tell people that I cooked the food they are terrified of trying the food hahaha...but I don't blame them because honestly I had no idea how to cook....I just know how to boil water! :p I remember calling Ivy when I cooked my first Carbonnara..."Ivy pano ba kasi lutuin yung sauce...lalagay ko lang ba sa kaldero tapos papaghaluin ko lahat tapos intayin ko kumulo?" ~~and shempre pinagtawanan ako ni Ibyang! hahaha ...pero it's ok nakakatawa naman talaga!

But since I'm living an independent life now I was kinda forced to cook, which is actually not bad and I'm kinda enjoying it. I'm not an expert yet and I'm just sticking to cooking pasta :P So I thank God for the person who invented the microwave! I'm not into eating anyway so I don't bother with learning a lot of stuff. One step at a time.

Anyway my cousin for some reason is into the preaching mood ....maybe she sensed that I was feeling homesick or whatever. She was firmly telling me to use my head...."Use your head Lisa!!!" " You have a new life now...whatever it is that you were used to before..you should forget it. You will be feeling all sorts of things...but you should use your head, you should never let your heart dictate what your decision is going to be. It doesn't matter where you came from..it's where you're going. You're young..... so play the game and use your head!"

I know I was always the "follow-your-heart" type of person, but she has a point and I know it's such a cliche but that's the reason why your head is over your heart...So while we're at it...can somebody tell me how to be numb and not feel anything?!?!!!

EE Cummings

2005-10-08T10:00:00.000-07:00

I will not attempt to pluck the flower from the garden...
Even as its beauty swallows my deepest yearning,
My longing will not draw me to the ground.
Let alone God's grace keep me from such sweet temptation.
For as beauty sways in all its glory
It will not dance without its thorns beneath its skirt.
And it is not my doing, not my move to take what is not yet given...
Let the waiting be for me, and the taking be for God.
For it is only He who can pluck the flower without bleeding.
Let my tears be from the thousand smiles when God gives me the beauty
And not from the thrashing pain those thorns may cause.
Do not attempt to pluck the flower from the garden. Do not awaken love.

Nice one!

2005-10-05T11:07:00.000-07:00

Congratulations Paul!!...you finally got the job that you wanted , a graphic designer for an international hotel business school......and with a new Apple pc (I'm so proud of you!!) !! Coolness di ba? He's so proud of his pc that he sent me a picture ( you are so gay and I love it!!)...which really made my day because I was laughing so hard!!! hahaha (Hey Anna ...you better check this out!!)

OMG..I remember our ministop days.....at the Herrera branch and we would make it our semi-karaoke place because they always play those old cheezy songs ...which we would sing to it by the way! I think na-weirdohan na nga mga tao dun samin pero wala kaming pakialam ni Paul and ANna, we would sing while eating that fried siomai with rice while I'm eating anything that's chicken (";)

Visit Paul's work at http://chobertz.deviantart.com

Tomorrow

2005-10-04T13:37:00.000-07:00

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today

I don't know how to feel,tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,just do

Gimme a lil time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,not today

And I know I'm not ready,
Maybe tomorrow

Tomorrow it may change

"Avril Lavigne"

Let's always pray & thank God for he is good all the time.

2005-10-04T11:41:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

I want to thank You for what you have already done.I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards, I am thanking You right now.

I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better,I am thanking You right now.

I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me,I am thanking You right now.

I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears,I am thanking You right now.

I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves,I am going to thank You right now.

I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet.I am going to thank You right now.

I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job.I am going to thank You right now.

I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief,I am going to thank You right now.

I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed,I am thanking You right now.

I am thanking You because I am alive.

I am thanking You because I made it through the day's difficulties.

I am thanking You because I have walked around the obstacles.

I am thanking You because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.

I'm thanking You even if others give up on me, and I'm thanking You FATHER, becauseYOU haven't given up on me.

" People may be unkind, just be kind. They may CHEAT just be HONEST. They may forget your good deeds, just do GOOD. In the end, its between YOU and GOD, NOT YOU AND THEM. God Bless"

What If It All Means Something

2005-10-04T10:55:00.000-07:00

If I could do anything for you, believe me I would
Do you feel the same? Feel the same as me?
If I could be anyone for you believe me I would
I'm not ashamed not ashamed to be
Its hard for me to know sometimes
I feel like letting go
But what if it all means something?

What if it all means something?
If I could go anywhere for you, believe me I would
I'd run away, I'd ran away, I'd leave.
If I could fix everything for you, believe me I would
Do you feel the same, feel the same as me?
Its hard for me to know, well maybe I should just let go.

But what if it all means something?
What if it all means something?

Leave me alone
I'm falling
If I could do anything for you, believe me I would
Do you feel the same? Feel the same as me?
Its hard for me to know well maybe I should just let go
But what if it all means something?

I know it all means something.

"Chantal Kreviazuk"

and then its over....

2005-10-02T15:01:00.000-07:00

Thanks for my great friends...

Ivy: alam ko nabibingi ka na sa kakapaulit ulit ko ng kwento and "rants" ko but you were always there to look out for me and listen to my nonsense hehe. Don't forget our goal~~~~~50 states!!

Ina:like what I said we are so in the same page....I don't know why we always have the same experience when it comes to our fucked up love life hahaha. But what the hell right? The important thing is we manage to stand up and dust off the dust that we collected :P This too shall pass!

Marvin, Liila, and Anna: for always making me laugh for always giving enlightening words of sillyness, I remember the vm that you left..... it was so timely, and yah I really miss hanging out with you guys~~~it's like we have no problems and we don't give a shit about anything. We make life simple~~~~one word actually~~ PARTY!!

Daisy: I &%#$ him with passion too!! hehehe Luv yah ......after all these years.....

If I can just fix this problem that I have right now then I would be a free person, no lies, no disguises......and for YOU....I hate to say this but you're still living a BIG lie and too bad cause you're never gonna get out of it :P Cheese sucka!!

Let's sing it!!!

In Demand (Texas)

When we were together
I was blown away
Just like paper from a fan
But you would act like I was just a kid
Like we were never gonna last

Now I've got someone who cares for me
He wrote my name in silver sands
I think you know you've lost the love of your life
And you said, I was the best you've ever had

Because I'm in demand
You're thinking of the way you should have held my hand
And all the times you said you didn't understand
You never had our love written in your plans
But now I'm in demand

Don't ever think you saw the best in me
There's a side you'll never know
Cos love and loving are two different things
Set your sites far too low

It's only when I fall a sleep
I see that winning smile
When my dreams just move along
You've lost the race by miles

Happy Birthday to my brother Michael!!!

AMF!!

2005-10-01T14:27:00.000-07:00

Ok so bored din ako so why not makigaya kay Ivy na bored din at work at magbasa ng blog hehe:P So I came across HUNDUN's blog and I liked it ....I kinda relate...hope you don't mind :-)

"...sometimes people have to be in a situation and see how fate turns out for them.....that's how life is....when things happen you let them happen and stand for what you put yourself into....you may get out of it and learn or go with it and still learn. But I know what you mean when you say, these are the kinds of situations when some relationships shatter and people break down...and I hate it too.....
Sometimes you can only do so much..."

I don't really want to be the queen.........I don't really want to live this~~~~~

2005-10-01T00:18:00.000-07:00

I am definitely not in a happy situation right now...

Why....why...why do I always end up in crap when things are going so well. A couple of days ago I thought I was fine until I started feeling weird.. I have no idea what I'm feeling and how it happend, I have never been so scared in my entire life........so scary I feel so numb. I'm very lucky I have my friends to give me encouragement.

I'm tired of blaming and hating, it's all partly my fault anyway~~ I trusted so much. I have kept my guard for a long time and when I finally decided to give everything, it was all for the wrong reasons. It's like sky diving without a parachute. I have become my own monster.

Howcome I have never seen this before? Why didn't I know it was coming? Why am I so freakin' stupid!

Yes, I will think and pour out my emotions for the last time. I will never go down that road again. No looking back. I'm not even going to leave the lights on. I'm sorry also I'm only human I can never forgive but I can definitely forget, and hell yeah I will forget. I know now. I will never be the same.

I thought I got it all mapped out, but like what they say, things don't always turn out the way you want it to be.

I have not fully decided what to do with the "situation" that I'm in right now, but I will not disappoint anybody anymore~~~ this craziness has got to stop and when this is all over, I will wake up like it was all a bad dream.

I think God can Explain.. (Splender)

2005-09-30T14:03:00.003-07:00

There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes

It's alright, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away

It's alright, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet

The sent of vasoline in the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry

It's alright I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away

It's alright I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet.

I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed

I'ts alright I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away

It's alright I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I'm relieved
I'm relaxed
I'll get off of your back

I think God can explain
I think God can explain
I think God can explain

~~~~Thanks Ed!~~~~

For YOU

2005-09-30T11:20:00.000-07:00

You first believed (Hoku)

How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace

So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget

It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed

There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart

It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed

How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star

That Girl

2005-09-29T15:01:00.000-07:00

You said I wasn't funny (but you laughed)

You said I couldn't drive fast (then you crashed)

Funny how it works out

With your big mouth

You'll always get it back

You thought you had me worked out (you're not deep)

Misterus grew a boust

At best you could've confessed

That you're a big mess

And that you're so damn weak

I'm the smoke from your fire

I'm that guy you can trust

I'm the cord on your guitar

I'm that girl you can't shutup

I'm the blood you might need

In your car way in your speed

In that cigarette you breath

You can't get rid of me

"Alexz Johnson"

Life is too short to live the same day twice

Wake me up when September ends

2005-09-27T11:25:00.000-07:00

I will not expound on the crazy and very STUPID (if I may add) things I did for almost a year....I have been blinded...brainwashed...you name it! And on top of that I met and known the greatest unbelievable and impossible person alive on earth! and only God knows how many are still here. But it's ok I learned my lesson ...sure I am hurt (very!) but at least now I am wiser and stronger....I realized that even if you think you know a person for years ...you don't know them (sad but true) only a handful of people have real intentions toward you and you can never know until they hurt you....I guess that's part of life.

You will never realize the importance of a person until they are gone or in my case very far away, sometimes you can't really see what's right in front of you. I'm somewhat glad that this happend to me or else I would not have realized who my friends are, or who really loves me...

I feel bad because I have disappointed and also hurt a lot of people along the way.....I almost lost the person who truly and unconditionally loves me...but God is good ..he never took him away from me...because despite everything that I did to him ...he's still there....he still loves me and maybe even more...it took a lot of pain for me to realize that.......I just regret the fact that I should have given him more......

The good news is that there are no mistakes when you're young, only research...

Well I learned my lesson the hard way ...and I learned that there is a thin line between love and hate...I learned that you should never give away your whole heart..it's YOUR heart.

I made a huge mistake....but I can always make a big come back.

This experience has got to have a purpose!!

And like what Marvin said......"if you need SPACE join NASA baby"! wahahahaha

"I gotta shake you off" ~~~~ Mariah

An excerpt..

2005-09-25T15:56:00.000-07:00

"I did not do it. No. And I pray that your mind is open to minor revisions. To think that I am not obliged to tell whatever.
I am not perfect. Are you? If you are.. well okay I applaud.. yah right. I may be guilty of a few but not all and certainly not that. (I can just imagine your facial expression after having read that line)

How much more do you want me to give up, how much more do you want me to sacrifice for something that I never did? I find it amazing though how you find satisfaction (check the term) in knowing that I am slowly losing touch of friends and that I cannot be there for yah that is your turf? How do you do that??? Maybe you can teach me so that I may cope up.
When you belong to a dysfunctional home, friends are all you have.. FYI. So, again, how much more do you want me to give up?

Moving on is more than a skill, it is something that you have to master. Unlike others, I CHOOSE not to torture my mind of unnecessary and untrue things. I refuse to make my issues revolve around the word absurdity.

It is true that we always have a choice. I pity this choice we made. This can be fixed, not go back to normal as an effect for truth-be-told that is not feasible. But we know for a fact that this can be resolved. We know better. At least that goes for me.
As I have said earlier, moving on is more than a skill. I am happy now and one day, I may surprise you. I may help you with all the issues of me you have made.. I will help you make those issues "clear." One day.

Negative reactions are expected and yah quite given. As of now, I do not mind. A lot has been said and another comment would not make much of a difference. Making comments I feel is someone's hobby. I don't know. You are lucky you belong to the majority, yah you have people you can call and all those things. Well, of course I am not alone either. I just miss the friends who at one point, helped. Made happy, brought to places and the best friendship spots.. those who were made part of my family.

I am not afraid nor intimidated with a strong character. For aggression is useless in times of non-sense-ness. And I know just like me, you are not perfect. That makes us EQUAL.
I have my hurts too, don't take all for yourself. I have loved and I was loved in return and it was one of the best feelings in the world.. I am grateful for what was given to me by a true person I know I will cherish forever. Cheezy but true. What happend was for us, not you. So mind your own. Nothing can justify your rat-iness.(check)

I have realized that silence will never solve problems, the repressed ill feelings. (but they're gone now.) So just let me have this, just one time... You can have the others."
PEACE. PEACE and PEACE.

Let bygones be bygones

2005-09-23T22:57:00.000-07:00

Life is too short....so why cry over spilled milk? Today I will live everyday like it was the last.....So help me God :p

and soon it will all be a speck in my memory.....

Spinning, twirling, flying away

Memories guide me from yesterday

Time will reveal my destiny

So why should I fight

What's right for me?

I'll live, I'll breathe

I'll dance my dreams

Hold me, kiss me

Look through my eyes

Know me, feel me

No more disguise

So why should I fight

What's planned for me?

Take my hand

Dance in my world

As I live, I breathe

I dance my dreams

Tomorrow will be mine

Today is ours

I will never let go

Until time unwinds

Today I have just arrived

Tamia-Dance my dreams

Eventhough.......

2005-09-22T12:08:00.000-07:00

lisa_22_g: wala na ba katapusan tong luha na toh
lisa_22_g: naks parang line sa movie eh
lisa_22_g: pero totoo
Marvin Garcia: hahahahha
Marvin Garcia: merong katapusan yan noh
Marvin Garcia: ang hurricane nga tumitigil eh
Marvin Garcia: yan pa kayang luha mo
lisa_22_g: hahaha

........thanks Marvin I get your point :P

And well...I just want to let you know, that after all the shit you've put me through, I'll always understand why you did the things you did...you don't have to explain yourself to me. And I'll always be there for you. Always love you..........

I can't sleep

2005-09-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

I was checking my email and talk about perfect timing!!

"Just because someone doesn't love you as you wish, it doesn't mean you're not loved with all his being.....Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of good luck......"

all I can say is...no comment :P Sometimes I wish I had amnesia

....my sun doesn't shine without you..........

This too shall pass........

2005-09-20T21:58:00.000-07:00

So how am I? So far so good...I'm so lucky to have great cousins and family here...everything is ok actually except that I really feel homesick :( The loneliness is killing me! ...or I thought It would :( It was overwhelming...but they said normal lang yun since this is the longest I've been away........I was even ready to just leave and go back because I got scared of the thought that I had to be all by myself for a long time......I miss everything from my parents to my pesty brothers ....my crazy friends, my unplanned trips with Ina and the Saturday club :P....the night life (especially Jaipur)........Starbucks trips with Liila, Anna and Marvin....the traffic....and I can't imagine I would ever miss work!!

This is where I live right now: in San Jacinto, CA

and their favorite pass time is to go to the lake ...of course I have to go with them sometimes although I'm not really an outdoor type of person..but hey why not! haha I know Liila and Anna ..you must be thinking..not so fetch!! hahaha

So far my social life is burning the lines with Ivy and MARVV (ayan Marvv ni correct ko na hehe) (N.F.F--new found friend wahahaha) tapos si Ivy every morning is like so mad at me for making her stay on the phone until 3am and she had to wake up very early for work haha!! Unfortunately we're 4 hours away from each other and we have work and other stuff to do kaya until now we're still planning how to see each other :P

This place is like a retreat for me ......parang religious retreat when you're in highschool where they send you away to reflect on your life kasi ang peaceful...I'm not complaining I'm actually beginning to like it ....It's actually good kasi when you're away you realize the most important thing that's right in front of you....I thank God He gave me the chance to make a fresh start...I won't screw up this time (but in case of emergency ..Ivy please prepare the baseball bat! :P)... All is well......

Life is what you make it.....

Me, Hollywood, Unversal Studios, and my Balenciaga :)

Here's the temporary site, check it out!

San Diego Balloon Safari

Peace's

No reason

Counting the days.....

Pot of gold......

Surprise ...surprise!!!! Oh yes I am!!

Are you kidding me????????????????

I hate cooking!!!!!!!!!*(^*%^*%*%*%!!!!!!!!!!!!

To my Mama

JUST MY LUCK

For Ina....

Busy bee

MAYABANG.NET------at least we can admit it...

Blue black

My turn..........

My theme song from Ibyang........for me and Chet

Once a Fab 5, always a Fab 5 (From Mars)

Congratulations!!!!

What the heck ulit........

Our attitude determines our altitude.......

Happy Birthday Chester!!

Wohoooo

Thank you

Ganon pala yun!!!

Flashback

Migraine girl

True strength is being able to hold it all together when everyone is expecting you to fall apart.....

Oh well.....

Not Bad...

Eleven Minutes

Paparazzi.........

FROGS

Warning: Do not read!!

What happend to us????????

Friendships!

What the....hail!!

"Life is short". What the hell?"

Taste Temptation

Beginner's luck!

The other side of my family

Inphonic

SoCal

SHARE

Life is short...

I love driving!!!

5 years ago.......

That's right Manny.....NO FEAR!!!!

It's official

God's favor is on its way.....

Because everybody deserves a chance to fly!

TFC!

Survey

Palm Springs Tramway

To stay or not to stay......

Love nanaman!!!!

New year!

The year end survey

For Anna

Merry Christmas!

The Happiest place on earth

My Christmas Wishlist

21 Suggestions for Success

Here I go again

At last!

Getting what you ask for

Please God

From Papa

November 28: Happy Birthday!

Nov. 24 Happy Thanksgiving

The worst way to find out who you really love

In my search for the truth....I became the lie

If you're going through hell just keep going.....

Happy Halloween!!!!

Because of You

From Marvin....It shall pass

At last!

Shopping

I hate cooking!!!!!!!!!(^%^%%*%!!!!!!!!!!!!